Unfortunate weekend

I say unfortunate, but there were some good things that happened. My Auntie came down and spent the weekend with us for her birthday! Happy Birthday Aunt Linda! We sure love having you here
Well, the unfortunate thing about the weekend was when we found out on Friday that we are not going to be parents... Again.  We are devistated, hurt and angry. I am having a hard time getting past this. I can't take my mind in any other direction without it quickly going back to that.  We were told that she has decided that she is going to parent the baby. It isn't our place to say what she should do with her child (she knows what's best for her).  We just hope the best for this baby. 

I am really starting to distrust adoption.  I hate feeling like this, but we've never been given a reason to trust.  :*(  I hope, really hope, that one day I can be proved wrong.  But I see no end in sight.