Happy Birthday Anayah

July 3, 2012 our sweet angel, Anayah was born.  I was in the OR for her delivery.

 

It was scary and the most amazing thing I've ever seen.  I say that it was scary because it took forever, it seemed, for her to come.  The doctors were tugging and pulling and yanking BM off the bed at times.  I thought there was something wrong.  Later I found out that that's normal.  I couldn't breathe.  Then I heard the most amazing sound I'd ever heard in my life.  I wasn't sure if it was her because it sounded like someone was awing at her.  She barely made a sound and never once cried.  They carried her over to the warming thing and started wiping her off.  My eyes followed wherever she went.  I couldn't take my eyes off her.  This was my baby entering the world.  The nurse called me over and told me that I could touch her.  I reached out and touched her leg.  I was shaking so badly, but when I touched her she shook the way I'd never seen a baby shake before.  The nurse said that wasn't normal and that they wanted to test her blood sugar levels.  She picked Anayah up and laid her on the weighing table.  Joe called it right on the dot.  Before she was born we bet on what her weight would be.  I said 6lb 5oz.  Joe said 6lb 1oz and that was exactly what she weighed!  Joe won not having to change a poopy diaper for a week! 

The lady wrapped her up and showed her to her BM.  She started crying and telling her she was so beautiful which was the first emotions I'd seen her have for Anayah.  When we took her out of the OR, the head nurse said, "Are you sure she's going to place this baby?  That was rough."  I got scared for a second, but I knew how she'd been up until that point so I pushed it out of my mind.  The nurse waited at the end of the hall while I went into the waiting room to get Joe.  We had a ton of friends and family there to support us.  My Mom and Dad, Jimmy, Clayton, NiKole, Kate (Heaton), Crystal and Chrin, and Amber.  The second I walked in everyone was up off the couch taking pictures and video.  Jimmy was the first person I saw and I ran into his arms and lost it.  I was finally a mother and I had just witnessed the most amazing wonderful thing anyone could ever witness.  I hugged everyone and grabbed Joe.  We walked out the door and into the hallway where I saw the nurse holding Anayah upright and shaking her and pounding on her back.  I lost my breath.  I was so scared.  She was not a good color.  A second later, which felt like an eternity, but I had only taken a couple steps toward her so it couldn't have been that long, the color came back to her face and she was breathing again.  I didn't even have to ask what happened, which makes me wonder what the expression on my face was, because the nurse said she just stopped breathing but she's fine now.  They kept doing that in the OR too because she'd just stop breathing.  I was so scared that she'd have lung problems.  When we went into the nursery the lady poked and prodded and then she took her blood.  It was normal so they didn't seem to worry about the shaking.  They gave her a few shots and she never cried or even flinched.  She was so good!  I couldn't believe it.  I left to go get my family to see her from the nursery window and when I came back they had bathed her without me.  I was so sad because I wanted to do that, but it was okay.  She was so peaceful!

 

Everyone was going crazy over her and getting tons of pictures.  I couldn't stop crying because they were, and I was looking at my baby!  I couldn't believe it!

  

 

After some time went by, they wheeled her out of the nursery and my family went crazy taking pictures of our sweet angel, so the nurse stopped and left her there for a while so people could see her and touch her.  They had her all bundled up, but I just remember her long skinny hand was poking out of her blanket. 

Dad said her hand looked just like her mommy's when she (I) was born.  I told him he should see her feet!  Then they brought us and the baby into the BM's room.  I had my parent's leave because I hadn't even held her yet and I didn't know how much longer until I got to hold her and we didn't know how we'd have visitors.  So we sat in the room while the BM slept.  The nurse took pictures of our first time holding her.

Joe videotaped her first feeding.  She didn't eat much, but the nurse said, for her first feeding that's okay. Later my family came and saw her and was able to hold her.  BM kept saying how glad she was that Anayah was with her mom and dad.  She was so glad to see us with her and she said, from the time she woke up from the surgery, that you could see how much we loved her!  She kept begging to sign the papers that day.  You could tell she wanted it over with.  All my fears that she'd change her mind went away.

For the rest of the day we sat and stared at her.  I couldn't get enough of her!  And even though I got little sleep the night before, I never once felt  tired.  I was a mom!  I felt like I had super powers!